So the weeks are starting to tick down until I launch this campaign to raise funds for my album, and with each day the nerves and ugly head of terror start to peak above the surface. You see, I’ve been writing music for many years now, dabbling in sounds and styles that struck my fancy and never really doing anything of note with my works.
Late 2011 spurred an ambition and fire in me, a drive to make something of the creative endeavor I had poured so much time and effort to over the years. So here I stand, on the precipice of a great big risky void that I should… no… need to leap into and see what it brings. The idea to actually have people contribute money to this started with an off-the-cuff suggestion by a friend of mine. “Have people give you money so you can buy some soundbanks,” he said, “and you write a remix for them.”
The suggestion then cemented itself firmly in my mind not long after the PA kickstarter. Jokingly, I suggested I get on the fundraiser bandwagon myself. Then, much to my surprise, a number of my friends expressed interest in getting on that bandwagon with me.
The concept of relying on the support and assistance of friends and strangers is a foreign concept to me. I’ve spent a fair portion of my life fighting and striving with no help from others; For many years my motto was ‘If you want something done right; do it yourself.’ Hell, I still can’t even take a compliment properly, and have no idea what to do when someone sends one my way. I write this without a modicum of arrogance or to brag; it was my upbringing and it was how I learned to survive. As a result, putting myself and my creative work on the line and hoping I can muster enough support to put some funds behind my cause is more than a little nerve-wracking.
I think Stephen Elop, CEO of Nokia, coined my situation perfectly when he sent his rallying memo to the Nokia Employees in February 2011. It’s possibly a little silly to quote, maybe a little awkward to shoehorn in here, but I feel now more than ever these words ring true.
“The man was standing upon a burning platform, and he needed to make a choice.
He decided to jump.
It was unexpected. In ordinary circumstances, the man would never consider plunging into icy waters.
But these were not ordinary times…”
So here I am, hoping both friends and strangers are by my side to take the jump with me.